* 17, so I could continue to say No to Blake.
* 21, so I could NOT get married.
* 34, so I could relive the feeling of fallingfallingfalling in love, maybe for the last time.
But really, I'm satisfied where I am. 35-almost-36 isn't bad.
2. Where were you when 9/11 happened?
I was in the car on the way to work. I turned on NPR and heard that a plane had crashed into the World Trade Center. I turned off the radio and drove the rest of the way in silence, thinking, "Great. Something else for people to get all right-wingy-freaked-out about." I got to work (at my current job) and one coworker was crying, desperate with fear that we were about to be bombed to kingdom come because our place of business is located across the street from the Post Office and the county courthouse. I posted a sign on the door to my personal office: "We will not discuss it here." We kept it up, too, and it was good to have a place to just be alone with our personal thoughts without feeling compelled to conform to anyone else's beliefs.
3. What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
Shoot them. No, seriously, I just pour in more money. Suck-ah.
4. Do you consider yourself kind?
To some people, I am exceedingly generous. To others, I am lacking in that regard. But "kind"? Probably not generally. Specifically, prehaps. Not generally.
5. If you had to get a tattoo, where and what would it be?
Left foot, just south of the exterior ankle bone: a sunburst.
6. If you could be fluent in any other language what would it be? Gaelic. No, Australian. hee hee
7. Do you know your neighbors?
Well, it depends on your definition of "know." And, I suppose, your definition of "neighbors." I know them all by sight and sound, and I'd imagine they know me by sight and some sound. I know their cars. I know Neighboy far too intimately for someone with whom I've shared two 10-word conversations. My landlords and the guys who work at SWC, though...I know them well. Not well enough in some cases, but pretty damned well.
8. What do you consider a vacation?
Departure from real life. However brief. Expense is immaterial. Distance is immaterial. And now I appreciate that company is immaterial. One of my best vacations was at a very high-class hotel in Miami, Florida with my then-spouse, my then-best-friend, and a hundred or so friends or acquaintances. Another of my very favorite vacations was spent shoulders-deep in a man-made pond 15 miles away, getting a sunburn with a boy.
9. Do you follow your horoscope?
Yup, every day. It is pathetic and foolish but I can't resist. I've never been "read" but I've always wanted to do it. Searching, searching, searching....
10. Would you move for the person you loved?
Done it. Hated it. I don't know that I would do it, or that I would trust it, again. Then again, I don't know that I'm the person to ask about trusting anything, or anyone.
11. Are you touchy-feely?
See the first two sentences that I gave for #9. Seriously, yes, I am. As much to give as to receive.
12. Do you believe that opposites attract?
People attract, not their 'types'. I am more than any one of the adjectives used to describe me, and the biggest mistake that someone can make is to assume that they know The Real Me based on some description they've heard, e.g. Attorney or Librarian or Historian. Or "good daughter" or "ex-wife" or "perfect for me." I am all those things and a million more, at the same time. And so is every other person, and to forget that is to lose one's sense of humanity. If I wanted to date someone's 10-answer profile, I'd print it off of Friendster and be done with it.
13. Dream job?
Oh, God, so not the one I have now. (Sorry, Cat!)
Writing. A novel.
14. Favorite channels?
I have the most basic cable available, to which I subscribed only so that I could get cable internet. I watch NBC and WGN most often. If I had "real" cable, I would watch a lot more TV and waste a lot more time.
15. Favorite place to go on a weekend?
What a painful question.
16. Showers or Bath?
Ditto the answer to #15.
I shower every other day. I love baths.
17. Do you paint your nails?
Toenails all the time, in varying colors. Most often some shade of red, but sometimes blue or pink. (Right now, Clarion's "Petal Pink".)
Fingernails, only for "special occasions", which is in quotation marks because it doesn't really encompass any logical category of events but just when I get off my ass and get organized. I beat the shit out of my hands at work so there's no point in drawing attention to my razor cuts, mashed fingertips, and mangled nails.
18. Do you trust people easily?
Yes, and then they hurt me, and then I regret it.
19. What are your phobias?
Dogs. The abandonment thing...it's not a phobia, really.
20. Do you want kids?
Yes. So, no.
21. Do you keep a handwritten journal?
Yes. I have 3, actually. The regular one is next to the bed. I write nearly every night, usually 2-3 pages. If I'm wound up, around 10. If I'm completely focused, as much as 18. I also carry one in my purse or bag at all times so I can capture moments, e.g. "You're not noticeably stinky."
22. Where would you rather be right now?
Wherever. Doesn't matter, really. I'm at work, fucking around. I should be entering holds for things I couldn't find on the shelf (need to match them with correct OCLC records) and changing the status to Missing. I could also be withdrawing what looks to be about 50 juvenile videos. Or the nevergoddamnedending processing, most of which is 9-inch Mylar jackets today. But hey, I'm blogging instead. What of it?!
So, what instead? Screw the "should"s; I'd like to be walking the Trail, stopping to eat something halfway decent (a peach? a roast beef sandwich?), and feeling the last of a nice summer day.
23. What makes you feel warm and safe?
* My car, except when I have to drive East on 64 past the driving range.
* My friends (you know who you are).
* My gray wool, itchy/scratchy sweater
24. Heavy or light sleep?
I can sleep for days given the right surroundings. In my current apartment: light sleeper. Definitely light.
25. Are you paranoid?
Nope. They're definitely out to get me.
26. Are you impatient?
Fuck yeah. Inside. Outside, smooth and cool.
27. Who can you relate to?
Oh, let's see...: Job, Tuvok, Uncle Kracker, Elinor Lipman, Louise Glück, Mark Rothko, Hobbes, Ezra, and Citino. To name a few.
Wanna know why?
28. How do you feel about interracial couples?
They're extra good with BBQ sauce. No, seriously: WTF?!
29. Have you been burned by love?
Duh. I'm 35.
30.What'ss your life motto?
"Citius, Altius, Fortius." No, wait, that's not right.
"Veni Vidi Vici." Well, that's closer.
Hmmm. What was it again? Oh, yeah:
"Amantes sunt amentes."
31. What's your main ringtone on your mobile?
Nextel's 'Ringer 12.' However, it rings on #3 and #2 much more often than that.
32. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping on my new couch.
33. Who was your last text message from?
Mike.
34. Who's [sic] bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine.
35. What color shirt are you wearing?
Dark blue camisole, buttery cream librarianish cardigan.
36. Most recent movie you watched?
Half of Beyond the Sea on Sunday. Before that, Raising Arizona.
37. Name five things you have on you at all times?
There are not five. If I had to choose, though, I'd say: phone, keys, driver's license, cash (at least $10), Burt's Bees lip stuff, and a journal. Oh, that's six.
38. What color are your bed sheets?
At the moment, white. Before I sleep, bizarre green.
39. How much cash do you have on you right now?
$30.11 ($1.11 in change)
40. What is your favorite part of a chicken?
Boneless breast. I like my birds floppy but top-heavy.
41. What's your favorite town/city?
Miami or DC, depending on the weather
42. I can't wait till...
...I can see r again.
43. Who got you to join LiveJournal?
I haven't. It's to [someone on Live Journal who I used to think was a friend]'s credit that I'm a blogger, though.
44. What did you have for dinner last night?
A hot-fudge shake from Ollie's.
45. How tall are you barefoot?
64 inches (162.6 cm)
46. Have you ever smoked crack?
Oh, yeah. Every fucking day. That's why I have this job.
Seriously, no.
47. Do you own a gun?
No.
48. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
A small glass of some fruit, not too cold. Later, a large (endlessly refillable) mug of hot tea with extra caffeine.
49. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
Remember those giant Q-Tips they use to have on American Gladiators?
No, seriously, I jus' use me brain. That seems to snag 'em jus' fine.
50. Do you have A.D.D.?
No.
51. What time did you wake up today?
7:45. It is my late day.
52. Current worry?
Money. D. Parents. Ex. The Birthday Gifts That Ate 2.5 Months Of A Summer. Money. Getting time off in September. Career. The size of my butt. Money.
53. Current hate?
People who behave like assholes in traffic and then wave a sort of airy "apology", as if that wave actually mitigates the assholish behavior. Without fail, the wave is what makes me want to spit down their neck after I've sliced their head off with the Swiss Army knife from my glove box. Yargh!
Oh, that and about 10 people with whom I work. {ggrrr}
54. Favorite place to be?
Ann Wadsworth wrote in Light, Coming Back:
* Chicago.
* Ireland.
* Spain.
* Miami, moremoremore.
* Seattle (yes, I will be careful).
56. Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
Happy. Healthy. Doing what I love. Spending more time with my friends, less time doing what I "should". Eating better. Getting more exercise, not as a "program" but because I'm moving around more. Bitching less.
57. Last thing you ate?
An ungodly amount of spiral Mac & Cheese at lunch. (ish)
58. What songs do you sing in the shower?
I never do that. I think, I cry, or I injure myself. But I never sing.
59. Last person that made you laugh?
Generally? The Cat, by email.
In person? Hmm. I suppose D, last night.
60. Worst injury you've ever had?
It was heart-related.
61. Does someone have a crush on you?
Yes.
62. What is your favorite candy?
Chukar Cherry Company's White Chocolate Berry Truffle. I would...kill..for these.
People attract, not their 'types'. I am more than any one of the adjectives used to describe me, and the biggest mistake that someone can make is to assume that they know The Real Me based on some description they've heard, e.g. Attorney or Librarian or Historian. Or "good daughter" or "ex-wife" or "perfect for me." I am all those things and a million more, at the same time. And so is every other person, and to forget that is to lose one's sense of humanity. If I wanted to date someone's 10-answer profile, I'd print it off of Friendster and be done with it.
13. Dream job?
Oh, God, so not the one I have now. (Sorry, Cat!)
Writing. A novel.
14. Favorite channels?
I have the most basic cable available, to which I subscribed only so that I could get cable internet. I watch NBC and WGN most often. If I had "real" cable, I would watch a lot more TV and waste a lot more time.
15. Favorite place to go on a weekend?
What a painful question.
16. Showers or Bath?
Ditto the answer to #15.
I shower every other day. I love baths.
17. Do you paint your nails?
Toenails all the time, in varying colors. Most often some shade of red, but sometimes blue or pink. (Right now, Clarion's "Petal Pink".)
Fingernails, only for "special occasions", which is in quotation marks because it doesn't really encompass any logical category of events but just when I get off my ass and get organized. I beat the shit out of my hands at work so there's no point in drawing attention to my razor cuts, mashed fingertips, and mangled nails.
18. Do you trust people easily?
Yes, and then they hurt me, and then I regret it.
19. What are your phobias?
Dogs. The abandonment thing...it's not a phobia, really.
20. Do you want kids?
Yes. So, no.
21. Do you keep a handwritten journal?
Yes. I have 3, actually. The regular one is next to the bed. I write nearly every night, usually 2-3 pages. If I'm wound up, around 10. If I'm completely focused, as much as 18. I also carry one in my purse or bag at all times so I can capture moments, e.g. "You're not noticeably stinky."
22. Where would you rather be right now?
Wherever. Doesn't matter, really. I'm at work, fucking around. I should be entering holds for things I couldn't find on the shelf (need to match them with correct OCLC records) and changing the status to Missing. I could also be withdrawing what looks to be about 50 juvenile videos. Or the nevergoddamnedending processing, most of which is 9-inch Mylar jackets today. But hey, I'm blogging instead. What of it?!
So, what instead? Screw the "should"s; I'd like to be walking the Trail, stopping to eat something halfway decent (a peach? a roast beef sandwich?), and feeling the last of a nice summer day.
23. What makes you feel warm and safe?
* My car, except when I have to drive East on 64 past the driving range.
* My friends (you know who you are).
* My gray wool, itchy/scratchy sweater
24. Heavy or light sleep?
I can sleep for days given the right surroundings. In my current apartment: light sleeper. Definitely light.
25. Are you paranoid?
Nope. They're definitely out to get me.
26. Are you impatient?
Fuck yeah. Inside. Outside, smooth and cool.
27. Who can you relate to?
Oh, let's see...: Job, Tuvok, Uncle Kracker, Elinor Lipman, Louise Glück, Mark Rothko, Hobbes, Ezra, and Citino. To name a few.
Wanna know why?
28. How do you feel about interracial couples?
They're extra good with BBQ sauce. No, seriously: WTF?!
29. Have you been burned by love?
Duh. I'm 35.
30.What'ss your life motto?
"Citius, Altius, Fortius." No, wait, that's not right.
"Veni Vidi Vici." Well, that's closer.
Hmmm. What was it again? Oh, yeah:
"Amantes sunt amentes."
31. What's your main ringtone on your mobile?
Nextel's 'Ringer 12.' However, it rings on #3 and #2 much more often than that.
32. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping on my new couch.
33. Who was your last text message from?
Mike.
34. Who's [sic] bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine.
35. What color shirt are you wearing?
Dark blue camisole, buttery cream librarianish cardigan.
36. Most recent movie you watched?
Half of Beyond the Sea on Sunday. Before that, Raising Arizona.
37. Name five things you have on you at all times?
There are not five. If I had to choose, though, I'd say: phone, keys, driver's license, cash (at least $10), Burt's Bees lip stuff, and a journal. Oh, that's six.
38. What color are your bed sheets?
At the moment, white. Before I sleep, bizarre green.
39. How much cash do you have on you right now?
$30.11 ($1.11 in change)
40. What is your favorite part of a chicken?
Boneless breast. I like my birds floppy but top-heavy.
41. What's your favorite town/city?
Miami or DC, depending on the weather
42. I can't wait till...
...I can see r again.
43. Who got you to join LiveJournal?
I haven't. It's to [someone on Live Journal who I used to think was a friend]'s credit that I'm a blogger, though.
44. What did you have for dinner last night?
A hot-fudge shake from Ollie's.
45. How tall are you barefoot?
64 inches (162.6 cm)
46. Have you ever smoked crack?
Oh, yeah. Every fucking day. That's why I have this job.
Seriously, no.
47. Do you own a gun?
No.
48. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
A small glass of some fruit, not too cold. Later, a large (endlessly refillable) mug of hot tea with extra caffeine.
49. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
Remember those giant Q-Tips they use to have on American Gladiators?
No, seriously, I jus' use me brain. That seems to snag 'em jus' fine.
50. Do you have A.D.D.?
No.
51. What time did you wake up today?
7:45. It is my late day.
52. Current worry?
Money. D. Parents. Ex. The Birthday Gifts That Ate 2.5 Months Of A Summer. Money. Getting time off in September. Career. The size of my butt. Money.
53. Current hate?
People who behave like assholes in traffic and then wave a sort of airy "apology", as if that wave actually mitigates the assholish behavior. Without fail, the wave is what makes me want to spit down their neck after I've sliced their head off with the Swiss Army knife from my glove box. Yargh!
Oh, that and about 10 people with whom I work. {ggrrr}
54. Favorite place to be?
Ann Wadsworth wrote in Light, Coming Back:
"We are always homesick for places where we cannot be. What are we longing for? Some feeling of wholeness or peace, something that's never possible right where we are? Some feel they are cut loose at birth and flung through time without any clue to where they belong, or with whom, and their life's obsession is to land somewhere, to find that missing person, or place, or spirit. 'That imbecilic passion of the part for the whole,' as Sartre has written. Yes. A waste, isn't it, that sort of search? You can waste your entire life."55. Where would you like to travel?
* Chicago.
* Ireland.
* Spain.
* Miami, moremoremore.
* Seattle (yes, I will be careful).
56. Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
Happy. Healthy. Doing what I love. Spending more time with my friends, less time doing what I "should". Eating better. Getting more exercise, not as a "program" but because I'm moving around more. Bitching less.
57. Last thing you ate?
An ungodly amount of spiral Mac & Cheese at lunch. (ish)
58. What songs do you sing in the shower?
I never do that. I think, I cry, or I injure myself. But I never sing.
59. Last person that made you laugh?
Generally? The Cat, by email.
In person? Hmm. I suppose D, last night.
60. Worst injury you've ever had?
It was heart-related.
61. Does someone have a crush on you?
Yes.
62. What is your favorite candy?
Chukar Cherry Company's White Chocolate Berry Truffle. I would...kill..for these.
[I borrowed this from The Cat. Why 62??]
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