Habit makes him put music on
she can't hear, although she lays
her hands upon a speaker to feel
the first thrust of Mozart's 29th
vibrate like her satisfied cat.
That morning they'd walked among
the lilies in late bloom, gold cups
raised above October's astonished dross,
the scene so clustered with
surprise she'd bent each word around
her tongue and he'd only frowned,
covered her lips with his, embarrassed
for her, though she wasn't. It's after lunch
so he pours Dewar's that goes untouched,
glass beading sweat as they make love,
sweating, on the black leather couch,
a red pillow propped beneath her
so shoulders and knees squeak their silken
leather rhythm. He'd asked her to sign
"yes, yes" or "more," something to say
he's doing all right, as if without words
there'd be no way of knowing. How can she?
Why? Her hands speak language he has no
trouble with, her moans those of any woman,
though musically slurred like a 45 played
at 33 rpm. Because she's deaf, he says things
he never had while making love, alternately
genteel and foul. She cracks her lids
just wide enough to read his lips and thus
conducts her own arrangement. She holds her hands
on his throat and chest to feel their music
strummed wilder than Mozart's. It's symphony
for hand and eye she plays. He wants to tell her
when he's reached the point of no return,
but signing, his fingers lock and his tongue, too,
so his struggle brings its blessing and curse,
plural as sex, and what comes from his throat
wrenches free of language, taking him with it.
A word? No, nothing she'd read on anyone's lips,
a creaking she felt but didn't hear, some colossal
gate unhinged for purple-robed priests to march through,
torches high, and bid him welcome to her kingdom.
she can't hear, although she lays
her hands upon a speaker to feel
the first thrust of Mozart's 29th
vibrate like her satisfied cat.
That morning they'd walked among
the lilies in late bloom, gold cups
raised above October's astonished dross,
the scene so clustered with
surprise she'd bent each word around
her tongue and he'd only frowned,
covered her lips with his, embarrassed
for her, though she wasn't. It's after lunch
so he pours Dewar's that goes untouched,
glass beading sweat as they make love,
sweating, on the black leather couch,
a red pillow propped beneath her
so shoulders and knees squeak their silken
leather rhythm. He'd asked her to sign
"yes, yes" or "more," something to say
he's doing all right, as if without words
there'd be no way of knowing. How can she?
Why? Her hands speak language he has no
trouble with, her moans those of any woman,
though musically slurred like a 45 played
at 33 rpm. Because she's deaf, he says things
he never had while making love, alternately
genteel and foul. She cracks her lids
just wide enough to read his lips and thus
conducts her own arrangement. She holds her hands
on his throat and chest to feel their music
strummed wilder than Mozart's. It's symphony
for hand and eye she plays. He wants to tell her
when he's reached the point of no return,
but signing, his fingers lock and his tongue, too,
so his struggle brings its blessing and curse,
plural as sex, and what comes from his throat
wrenches free of language, taking him with it.
A word? No, nothing she'd read on anyone's lips,
a creaking she felt but didn't hear, some colossal
gate unhinged for purple-robed priests to march through,
torches high, and bid him welcome to her kingdom.
[Kevin Stein, 'What Language Makes of Us' from Bruised Paradise: Poems]
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