naturally. Some of my bulbs aren't coming up, so I'm wondering what that's about. And the wren house is still vacant!
328: Which month has been the best of 2021 so far? Do you think June will be the best month?
2021 is heading in an upward direction. I think June might be the best month so far.
329: How can goals make you blind to other things that are just as important? How can goals help you realize what is important?
it's possible to get so wrapped up in the end game that you can't experience the smaller joys, day to day. If you're always working for someday, trying to make as much money as you can so that you can have one Hell of a fantastic retirement, and then get hit by a meteor while driving home with your gold watch and rocking chair in the car on your last day with the firm... well, that's a shit way to have lived your life.
I don't know what to say about goals helping you realize what's important. Not sure I can see it that way.
330: What words (from a book, quote, advice...?) have affected you the most this year?
"A single moment of misunderstanding is so poisonous
that it makes us forget
the hundred lovable moments we've spent together."
That hit me like a bomb. If you love somebody, remember the entirety of what they've done and how they make you feel - and how you love them, not only the foolish moment of misunderstanding.
331: Have you ever gotten over jealousy or envy for someone?
jealousy has been a huge part of my life at times, and then it's faded pretty much completely. Jealousy is not really about the desired, but about the ego of the one desiring. "I want, but I can't have...."
I'm involved in a situation that seems to be fraught with jealousy, but that's not the point. There are other feelings, other frustrations, that are much stronger than the jealousy ever has been.
332: When was the last time you felt relieved of a burden?
yesterday evening. It's not news for public consumption yet - but it's good, positive, hopeful. A relief.
333: Do you think you aim for every opportunity that appears before you? Or do you let it pass because you are scared?
if one aimed for every opportunity that appeared, one would be quite scattered and exhausted. Choose your battles, focus your energies, and, yes, marshal your forces if you're scared.
334: What is wrong with a risky life?
you're more likely to burn out faster? I don't know if this is true, frankly. I can see as much wrong with a sedentary/safe life. I could die from inertia.
335: What do you want to accomplish in the second half of the year?
a great hairstyle, creating something beautiful, and finding a new piece of 'everyday' jewelry
336: Are you thinking the same thoughts as when you started the year?
I'm more positive and lots more healthy, thanks to the 75% decrease in headache frequency, and 50% decrease in severity. And my braces are off. Woot! What's not to be happy about?
337: How are you going to finish this year? Do you want this year to be special?
that's a dumb question. Of course I want this year to be special, because that's a sort of general wish. I'm going to finish this year doing something different than I did to start it, and generally streamlined. That's all good.
338: What has been your favorite memory from this month?
I had one outstanding phone call
339: What has caused you to change the most this year?
340: What have you been especially thankful for this year?
medical insurance, Amazon Prime delivery, and the kind support of friends
341: Have you taken some time to look back at 2020? Have you applied what you have learned from 2020 to this year?
ehhhh, no. Pretty sure it's best just to write off 2020 as a void in human history.
342: Have you been genuine towards others this year?
prehaps excessively so
343: Have you been trying your hardest this year?
at some things!
344: Have you developed any romantic relationships with anyone this year?
not exactly
345: Do you think it is important to stay friends with your exes?
there are situations where that is possible and terrific - and then there is the majority of the time, where it is asking too much. Seeing someone naked (emotionally, physically, whatever) is not conducive to a platonic relationship.
346: Name a meaningful thing that happened in the past 2 months?
my best friend from grade school has finished up radiation and is about to start the chemo phase of her cancer treatments. We don't talk much about strength and endurance or the shit she's going through - but I am hugely proud and in awe of her.
347: List 5 things that you like about yourself.
a. skill with displaying photographs
b. ability to recall song lyrics and snippets of poetry
c. focus
d. hamstrings
e. sensitivity
348: Do you think you have matured this year? How so?
definitely. Well, I did something dumb that ended up hurting someone I like, and I feel bad about it. I want to fix it, but there's no fix. Just feeling my conscience grinding on me is a form of maturity.
I also bought kitchen appliances. And had a colonoscopy, and shingles shots. And hit my medical insurance deductible in May. Doesn't get much more maturity-ish than that.
349: Have you kept a positive mindset this year?
ha! Yeah, for maybe 51% of the time, which is roughly 21% more than previously.
350: Do you celebrate anything unusual in summertime?
the local festival takes place next week Wednesday through Sunday. I will do my damnedest to stay as far away from it as possible. The thing itself isn't that bad, but the surrounding pedestrians/driving/parking hoopla is annoying. And really, after a lifetime of it - you've seen one, you've seen them all.
[from here and adapted a great deal; the title quotation is by Albert Einstein]
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