I don't know why I get so cold at ten o'clock, but that's when I'm drawn,
like some sort of nightbird, to our nest upstairs in the flannel sheets,
once the color of pinot noir, now duller, patinaed by the silver
of our skins. I need to pile on the blue blanket, the heavy woolen
one from Ireland, the Broken Star quilt, before I stop
shivering. Sometimes the house itself quivers in the wind.
Then you come up, and we arrange ourselves like a nest
Then you come up, and we arrange ourselves like a nest
of measuring cups. Some of our friends now sleep alone, half
the set missing. I've told you you're not allowed to die first;
I don't do numbers checkbook, taxes, bills. My breasts
I don't do numbers checkbook, taxes, bills. My breasts
press into your back; my hand with the numb fingers stretches
over your heart. How lucky we are to have found each other;
what if I hadn't gone to the party that night? The second time
for both of us; we know how it can all go wrong. Even
when I can't sleep, I listen to the hoots and calls
of your breathing, which both keeps me awake
and will be the first thing I'll miss when all the nights
are silent. We know there'll be an afterwards;
we're not that young anymore. I turn, and turn again,
the way a dog circles before he lies down. And though
we can't see them, the stars twirl overhead, each one nested
in the place in space it's supposed to call home.
[Barbara Crooker {1945- }, 'Owl Hour', from Fire on Her Tongue: An Anthology of Contemporary Women’s Poetry]
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