backsliding

    The things that feel the best, and the most right, can be the absolute worst for you. Not at the time—not while you're in it, in that way where you could see what you're doing to yourself and so pluck yourself out or maybe ask for some help—but later, when it's just another x of the mire in which you're neck-deep. Man, do I hate feeling so wrong about something that feels felt so right.