reckless

There is a part of you, you see now, that is reckless. A part of you that still wants to die but never wants to really go after it. So it makes mistakes instead. Or it says, when trouble comes in and has lemonade, I wonder what this will look like. If I sit still. If I do nothing. So you say, Oh, I don't think so.

[Alexander Chee, from Edinburgh]