9.05.2020

I curled and sinuous'd and slow-flicked my most happy tail

I had thought it was something we were in. I had thought we were 
in it that day, in the capital 
of his early province—how could we 
have not been in it, in our hotel bed, in the 
cries through the green grass-blade. Then, knees 
weak, I though I was in it when I said 
would he mind going out into the town on his own. 
I knew there was sorrow there, byways, worn 
scrimshaw of a child's isolateness. 
And who had pulled us down on the bed for the 
second time that day, who had 
given-taken the kiss that would not 
stop till the cry—it was I, sir, it was I, 
my lady, but I thought that all we did 
was done in love's sight. So he went out by himself 
into the boyhood place of deaths 
and icy waters, and I lay in that bowl-of- 
cream bed purring. The room was like the bridge of a 
ship, windows angled out over the harbor— 
through thick, smooth Greenland glass I 
saw the port city, I curled and sinuous'd 
and slow-flicked my most happy tail, and 
farther into cold fog 
I let him go, I lay and stretched on love's 
fucking stretcher, and let him wander on his 
own the haunt salt mazes. I thought 
wherever we were, we were in lasting love— 
even in our separateness and 
loneliness, in love—even the 
iceberg, just outside the mouth, its 
pallid, tilting, jade-white 
was love's, as we were. We had said so. And its inner 
cleavings went translucent and opaque, 

violet and golden, as the afternoon passed, and there were 
feathers of birds inside it preserved, and 
nest-down and maybe a bootlace, even 
a tern half shell, a baby shoe, love's 
tiny dory as if permanent 
inside the bright overcast. 

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