3.09.2021

you were like the humming bird to me... And I am rather inclined to feel that you and I know the best part of one another without spending much time together

from 100 Self-Reflection Questions 
 
66. What makes you laugh or smile? 
Bugs carrot
    rabbits gobbling veggies in the back yard
67. What motivates you?
    love, money, and fear
68. What one thing have you wanted to do but not yet been brave enough to try? 
    quit my job without a safety net
69. What qualities do you most admire in others that you wish you had yourself? 
    patience, mathematical ability, and coldness
70. What season of life are you in right now? 
caterpillar
    caterpillar
71. What takes up the majority of your time? 
    work, sleep, and writing
72. What thoughts distract you when you’re trying to get to sleep? 
    ugh, I forgot to...!
    why did I...?
    and now, temporarily,
    why did my animal houseguest just...???
73. What topics could you talk all day about? 
    poetry, plants, and the meaning of life
74. What were your biggest lessons from this last year? 
    depression is more powerful than it seems, and my judgment is (mostly) trustworthy
75. What’s going to bring you joy this month? 
    warmer weather
hummingbird
76. What’s on your bucket list? 
    international travel
    hummingbird tattoo
    buying a frivolous summer car
77. What’s on your upside-down bucket list, meaning, what have you already accomplished that you’re proud of? 
    maintaining good credit, earning two advanced degrees, and getting a bunch of really nice shoes
78. What’s the bravest thing you’ve ever done? 
    it's not "the bravest," but I unfriended some people on FB this weekend who've not been good to me lately. That isn't easy for me—is it easy for anyone? do most people just leave it?—but I'm tired of seeing their names and feeling snubbed.
79. What’s the most exciting thing you’ve ever experienced? 
    no comment
80. What’s the most spontaneous thing you’ve ever done? How did it make you feel? 
    buying my car online was not exactly spontaneous, since I knew what I wanted and how much I could spend. But the actual buying was pretty quick-and-dirty: I called the dealership, told them I wanted the car in their ad, we talked numbers, I joked that I wanted them to deliver it, they said they could, and we arranged for them to do so (at no extra charge). I put down a deposit with my credit card and the deal was done in about 10 minutes.
82. What’s your favourite self-care activity? Why do you enjoy it so much? 
    bubble baths. They smell good, they feel good, and when they are done I still feel relaxed for hours afterward. And that great scent lingers, too.
84. When was the last time you cried and why? 
    a couple of weeks ago, having confirmed the end of a relationship
85. When was a time you threw caution to the wind?  
    see by car-buying experience above. That's also pretty much how I bought the new mattress and made a lot of similar "big decisions." Considering the ramifications is all well and good, but a point arrives where analysis is done and action is necessary. Whoomp: there it is.

[from here; the title quotation is by Georgia O'Keeffe]

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