4.04.2022

two waves not crashing but moving through each other

In a nondescript hotel in East Texas, I fell 
in love with a couple. There in the dim 
 
hallway with rugs that were clean enough 
but darkly patterned to hide the stains so who knows, 
 
her back was against the wall, her arms up and around 
his neck. He was bent down to kiss her, to press 
 
his body into hers. Their bodies were fluid, two waves 
not crashing but moving through each other – 
 
I watched my friends from the other end of the hallway, 
surprised, I had halted. Doesn’t another’s passion 
 
make us want the same? They never saw me. I didn’t stay long 
and stayed silent. She was not his wife, but his 
 
love was palpable. His hands were tender not quick. 
Slow not furtive              That press. 
 
I have been a witness to such passion more than once, 
more than most. On a common street in Manhattan, 
 
in a nondescript restaurant whose patrons—too young, too 
childish to value discretion or quiet—spoke in loud voices 
 
and fell drunkenly over the tables, I saw my dinner partner 
through the oversized windows. The street lit by random lights. 
 
He drew her up into his body. She was no friend of mine. 
She followed me to follow him. She found him 
 
and drew his face down to hers. They kissed in a way 
that said they had kissed many times before and 
 
perhaps it had been a long time. The kiss was long 
and deep and I ate my steak au poivre bloody under sauce 
 
and waited for them to finish, for him to come back 
to the table after rushing out “to take a call.” 
 
They never saw me watching. Didn’t even look up. 
He swept her up as if his entire body longed 
 
for a certain kind of completion. Her hair so like his mother’s 
he might have cried into it. Where is the shame 
 
in that? She was not his wife. I am not his judge. 
I was on the shore, only a witness to the oceanic: 
 
dangerous, tidal, reckless, and always. 
 

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