10.22.2025

I never asked her what she gave up

When the doctor suggested surgery 
and a brace for all my youngest years, 
my parents scrambled to take me 
to massage therapy, deep tissue work, 
osteopathy, and soon my crooked spine 
unspooled a bit, I could breathe again, 
and move more in a body unclouded 
by pain. My mom would tell me to sing 
songs to her the whole forty-five minute 
drive to Middle Two Rock Road and forty-
five minutes back from physical therapy. 
She’d say, even my voice sounded unfettered 
by my spine afterward. So I sang and sang, 
because I thought she liked it. I never 
asked her what she gave up to drive me, 
or how her day was before this chore. Today, 
at her age, I was driving myself home from yet 
another spine appointment, singing along 
to some maudlin but solid song on the radio, 
and I saw a mom take her raincoat off 
and give it to her young daughter when 
a storm took over the afternoon. My god, 
I thought, my whole life I’ve been under her 
raincoat thinking it was somehow a marvel 
that I never got wet. 
 

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