4.12.2026

how to walk down a sidewalk without looking back

My older brother is walking down the sidewalk into the suburban summer night: 
white T-shirt, blue jeans— to the field at the end of the street. 
 
Hangers Hideout the boys called it, an undeveloped plot, a pit overgrown 
with weeds, some old furniture thrown down there, 
 
and some metal hangers clinking in the trees like wind chimes. 
He’s running away from home because our father wants to cut his hair. 
 
And in two more days our father will convince me to go to him— you know 
where he is— and talk to him: No reprisals. He promised. A small parade of kids 
 
in feet pajamas will accompany me, their voices like the first peepers in spring. 
And my brother will walk ahead of us home, and my father 
 
will shave his head bald, and my brother will not speak to anyone the next 
month, not a word, not pass the milk, nothing. 
 
What happened in our house taught my brothers how to leave, how to walk 
down a sidewalk without looking back. 
 
I was the girl. What happened taught me to follow him, whoever he was, 
calling and calling his name. 
 

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