if a man wishes to be sure of the road he walks on, he must close his eyes and walk in the dark

May 26: saturnine

Stannis is the most saturnine character I've ever read, which makes him a fascinating study in contrasts with the possibly-phony red witch.

 

    Faced with a very short list of Things to Accomplish today, I instead took an ill-advised two-hour nap just after breakfast, read for the rest of the morning, dawdled halfway through a pedicure before losing interest, started but did not finish a few other projects, sent a couple of text messages (two of which went completely unacknowledged...sigh...I'm getting really tired of being the one who answers but isn't answered...), and mostly just kept catching myself looking out the window at nothing, or gazing across the room but not seeing. I'm not even sure what I'm not thinking about, just that something's really not right and my heart and mind won't settle. I'm headed upstairs now to take a long bath and try to stop thinking. If nothing else, I'll end up clean on the outside.

[the title quotation is by St. John of the Cross]