6.17.2021

memory insists on pining

We stood on the rented patio 
While the party went on inside. 
You knew the groom from college. 
I was a friend of the bride. 
 
We hugged the brownstone wall behind us 
To keep our dress clothes dry 
And watched the sudden summer storm 
Floodlit against the sky. 
 
The rain was like a waterfall 
Of brilliant beaded light, 
Cool and silent as the stars 
The storm hid from the night. 
 
To my surprise, you took my arm– 
A gesture you didn’t explain– 
And we spoke in whispers, as if we two 
Might imitate the rain. 
 
Then suddenly the storm receded 
As swiftly as it came. 
The doors behind us opened up. 
The hostess called your name. 
 
I watched you merge into the group, 
Aloof and yet polite. 
We didn’t speak another word 
Except to say goodnight. 
 
Why does that evening’s memory 
Return with this night’s storm– 
A party twenty years ago, 
Its disappointments warm? 
 
There are so many might have beens, 
What ifs that won’t stay buried, 
Other cities, other jobs, 
Strangers we might have married. 
 
And memory insists on pining 
For places it never went, 
As if life would be happier 
Just by being different. 

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