5.06.2021

this is his own private chicken, even if he fails to recognize her

A man eats a chicken every day for lunch, 
and each day the ghost of another chicken 
joins the crowd in the dining room. If he could 
only see them! Hundreds and hundreds of spiritual 
chickens, sitting on chairs, tables, covering 
the floor, jammed shoulder to shoulder. At last 
there is no more space and one of the chickens 
is popped back across the spiritual plain to the earthly. 
The man is in the process of picking his teeth. 
Suddenly there’s a chicken at the end of the table, 
strutting back and forth, not looking at the man 
but knowing he is there, as is the way with chickens. 
The man makes a grab for the chicken but his hand 
passes right through her. He tries to hit the chicken 
with a chair and the chair passes through her. 
He calls in his wife but she can see nothing. 
This is his own private chicken, even if he 
fails to recognize her. How is he to know 
this is a chicken he ate seven years ago 
on a hot and steamy Wednesday in July, 
with a little tarragon, a little sour cream? 
The man grows afraid. He runs out of his house 
flapping his arms and making peculiar hops 
until the authorities take him away for a cure. 
Faced with the choice between something odd 
in the world or something broken in his head, 
he opts for the broken head. Certainly, 
this is safer than putting his opinions 
in jeopardy. Much better to think he had 
imagined it, that he had made it happen. 
Meanwhile, the chicken struts back and forth 
at the end of the table. Here she was, jammed in 
with the ghosts of six thousand dead hens, 
when
suddenly she has the whole place to herself. 
Even the nervous man has disappeared. If she 
had a brain, she would think she had caused it. 
She would grow vain, egotistical, she would 
look for someone to fight, but being a chicken 
she can just enjoy it and make little squawks, 
silent to all except the man who ate her, 
who is far off banging his head against a wall 
like someone trying to repair a leaky vessel, 
making certain that nothing unpleasant gets in 
or nothing of value falls out. How happy 
he would have been to be born a chicken, 
to be of good use to his fellow creatures 
and rich in companionship after death. 
As it is he is constantly being squeezed 
between the world and his idea of the world. 
Better to have a broken head—why surrender 
his corner on truth?—better just to go crazy.

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