I walked with my eyes closed.
“This way, this way, good. I won’t let you trip.”
“Are we nearly at the greenhouse?”
“Almost.”
“Is the moon still out.”
“Yes.”
“Is anyone else around?”
“No. Nobody I can see, except two men.”
“Where are they?”
“Some place far away, walking their dogs. Off by the edge of the
park. They each have a dog. One small dog is white, with short
legs and short fur, one big dog is brown with curls.”
“Thank you.”
“You are welcome. Is there something else you would like to
see?”
“No.”
“Are you sure? You could see a lot through my eyes. The trees
are casting dark precise shadows.”
“What happens when we reach the greenhouse?”
“Nothing.”
“Nothing?”
“I then close my eyes. Darkest Miriam, and it’s your turn to
lead me.”
“Where to?”
“Home.”
“You don’t have a home, Janko.”
“Don’t I?”
“No.”
“What about my apartment?”
“No.”
“And my paintings?”
“They are the closest thing you have to a home.”
“What if I have children? Where will they live?”
“You won’t have children.”
“I won’t? You are deciding I won’t have children? But I want to
have children.”
“I don’t see you having any.”
“You mean you don’t want me to have any? Is that what you
mean?”
“I haven’t any idea if I want you to or not. I’m saying what I see
when I close my eyes.”
“Open your eyes.”
“Have we reached the greenhouse?”
“No.”
“Then why should I open them?”
“Open them, Darkest Miriam.”
“No.”
“Do you want me to leave you here?”
“Are you afraid of what I’ll see, if I keep my eyes closed?”
“Afraid. Afraid. Why are you always thinking about fear? Life is
bigger than fear.”
“Are you afraid of what I’ll see if I keep them closed?”
“Yes.”
“Yes?”
“I am afraid of what you will see if you keep your eyes closed.”
“Then I’ll open them.”
“Thank you.”
“They’re open now.”
“Good. I see that they are. And you see, we are not far from the
greenhouse.”
“I doesn’t matter anymore, Janko.”
“You are disappointed.”
“The moon is gone.”
“It will come back.”
“I was only imagining.”
“You said that I won’t have any children. It sounded like a curse.
You didn’t mean to curse me, but that is how it sounded.”
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