let me ask you one question / Is your money that good? / Will it buy you forgiveness?

  • What crowd-funding projects have you supported? If you haven’t supported any, were there some that really intrigued you?
    my first was a Kickstarter for a film, a major motion picture that is the third in a series. I loved the first two, and the writer/director is as close as I get to that sort of personal hero. It's a little bit depressing--the really big perk is this week, the premier of the film and some major parties, all in New York, all of which I could have attended. Really, it was just cool to be a part of it at all. And when the DVDs arrive, that will be extraordinary enough. Maybe.

    I've also done a much smaller (meaning, it didn't raise nearly the $284,000 of the above project) Kickstarter for some very odd, nerdy fantasy game cards. The goal was something like quintupled, and those should ship sometime soon, too.

    The most recent project I backed was "Geeks Doing Good," for Worldbuilders. If you don't know about it, please take a couple of minutes and click through to the site, because it'll make you feel good about life.
  • How much of your monthly bill-paying is done online?
    all of it. I haven't bought check blanks since well before I moved out of my downtown apartment, which was (!) more than three years ago.
  • What are some of the more memorable things you’ve bought or sold in online auctions?
    I've not sold anything, but I've purchased many things that way. The most memorable? Handmade ceramic sheep.
  • What experience do you have with purchasing digital entertainment (music, movies, TV shows, or live web shows, for example) online?
    I buy all my music digitally now. I'm still a little weird about movies--I'll certainly watch streaming movies whenever/wherever, but I'm such a freak for the extras that I'll still go lower-tech sometimes. It's kind of like books: when I want the paper version, I'll buy the paper version; when I want the digital, I'll get the digital. It may not be easy to explain the difference, but I know it and I do it.
  • What kind of stuff have you bought or sold from personal online craft stores, such as are found on Etsy?
    I'm not such a crafty person, really, but I have gotten a few things, like hand-decorated shotglasses and ... ahem, salt & pepper shakers....

[from here, originally from here; the title quotation is by Bob Dylan]


slotting an impossible shot--bam!--into that pocket

Leaving sex out of this
There are few physical exertions more satisfying than
Taking an urgent piss
On virgin snow, or unwrapping a really good Havana,
Or lifting the first glass
Of nectar to quivering lips while leaning over the bar
To pat the barmaid's arse,
Or slotting an impossible shot--bam!--into that pocket
Your mates had bet you'd miss,
Or bolting two hot dogs with trimmings down your gob at the game.
Leaving sex out of this.

[Felix Dennis, 'Leaving Sex Out Of This', from Love, of a Kind: A Book of New Poems]

* NOTE: "This poem is a work in progress. It is incomplete, unfinished and has not been revised. It is meant only to offer a glimpse into the notebook of a poet at work. Please do not post it onto other sites or publish it in any form without this notice being attached. Thank you — Felix Dennis
Dorsington, Warwickshire March 13, 2010"


who is not awed that listens to the Rain, Sending his voice before him? Mighty Rain!

  1. Where would you retire to?
    in the unreal world where I give myself leave to consider such things, I would currently consider retiring to Maine, Miami, Seattle (you had to know that I've thought about it, right?), or Minnesota
  2. What are your best physical features?
    strong shoulders, soft-looking skin, and two of the best feet ever
  3. What are your best characteristics?
    I am, according to the window: complex, intelligent, witty, observant, and knowledgeable.
  4. What kind of books do you like to read?
    character-based fiction that is described as either 'literary' or 'quirky'. More "straight-up" fiction than genre, though I read a lot of series genre for work. I am expanding into more mystery and fantasy, though, and a little bit of current-day science fiction. And nonfiction that is at least moderately narrative. And poetry, of which I tend to appreciate the less modern or experimental.
  5. What are you reading now?
    Canadian fiction by Ray Robertson called Moody Food. And the highly critically acclaimed China MiƩville fantasy novel Perdido Street Station, which I'd previously started and stopped when life got in the way.
  6. [The original question in this space was either inapplicable to my life or unrepentantly stupid, so I'm declaring it a free space.]
    I'm writing this using my 'biggest' birthday present, which is a new (to me) computer. My friends' generosity--and ability to read my mind--boggles me.
  7. What is your favorite time of the day?
    about 2:AM, when it's finally quiet
  8. Where did you grow up?
    in a 3-bedroom house close to the top of a limestone hill, seven miles outside a small city in one of the 10 largest states in the nation (as ranked by water area). Not quite that high a ranking by population, alas.
  9. How far away from your birthplace do you live now?
    257.99 miles
  10. Are you a morning person or a night owl?
    more night, more better
  11. What inspires you?
    besides dark, quiet, stillness, solitude, and alone time? Good friends, poetry, photography. Music. Rain. Dreams.
  12. Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?
  13. Do you have pets?
    we pretend sometimes, but no--they're not mine
  14. How many rings before you answer the phone?
    if I'm going to answer it, I'll just answer it. I very rarely do that, but it happens occasionally.
  15. What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life?
    clerk, baker, cake decorator. Office assistant. Office manager. Graduate assistant (times three or so. Transcriber.
  16. Any new and exciting things that you would like to share?
    there are things, but nothing that's quite shareable yet
  17. What is most important in life?
    not buying into fallacies like "most important", maybe? No demeaning bullshit like "everything in moderation," but something more realistic than the idea that "love conquers all" or "it's all about family" or "he with the most toys wins."

  18. Did you dream last night?
    something very deranged, about goldfish and medieval battles. I think there's a fever afoot.
  19. Do you remember your dreams?
    more often than not, I will recall something. Sometimes just bits and pieces, and sometimes the entire narrative, as if the story has been laid before me, plainly, so that I will be able to retell it.

[from the typical fount, who got it here; the title quotation is by William Cullen Bryant]


you can't wait for inspiration. You have to go after it with a club

  • What kind of blog do you have?
    you tell me. I suppose it's mostly this, kind of unstructured Seinfeldian blathering about myself, books/movies/music, occasional photos, and sporadic blasts of poetry.
  • How many posts do you have?
    2411, plus another dozen or two in draft at any one time
  • How many blogs [and other sites] do you follow?
    there are 38 in my Bloglines profile. A few of those are inactive, while others produce hundreds of posts each week. I don't know if the total posts-to-be-read has ever been lower than 500.
  • How many followers do you have?
    it varies a great deal--some inexplicably heavy-hitter posts have reached the 1200+ hit range, while others have literally zero individual click-throughs. Given how frequently I take breaks from writing, though, I can't complain that y'all take breaks from checking in.
  • How often do you change your theme?
    it's been years. Does that appeal? Shall I give it a go?
  • How often do you change your icon?
    again, not for ages. Since I've tried fairly hard to make this space "me-but-not-me", updating the photo and details seems spectacularly unimportant relative to churning out new content.
  • Do you have any favorite blogs?
    The Cat's clearinghouse of all things quizzical, Sweet Memes, is always good for a laugh and to make me think. I love xkcd--and his book is flipping awesome. And my favorite celebrity (?) blog is that of fantasy author Patrick Rothfuss.
  • Do you ever send anonymous messages to other people?
    only through my foil cap
  • Do you ever get anon hate?
    see previous answer
  • Have you made any friends through your blog?
    I've made friends. I've made enemies. I met the love of my life. I've been reacquainted with very old friends from various stages, thanks to an evolving appreciation for nicknames and vagueness. Blogs are social networks, after all.
  • What’s your favorite thing about blogging?
    the creation of something beautiful and enduring
  • What’s your least favorite thing about blogging?
    toiling in obscurity, feeling like the best of what I've done goes unnoticed, while some of the biggest hits were churned out with little thought or effort

[from the usual source, who got it here; the title quotation is by Jack London]


it's such a brilliant thing, isn't it?

  • What’s the last thing you experienced that could be called a reunion?
    the last time I was in Minnesota, I managed to run into a goodly number of people I haven't seen in years, or even a decade or so. Two of my aunts. A couple of cousins. Numerous friends. In a sense, that whole trip was a reunion.
  • When you spend time out with friends, how does your group handle the bill?
    lately, we tend to either go one-time-me/one-time-you or split-down-the-middle. I'm no fan of math and it all seems to work out in the wash. Friends are more important than money.
  • What are you picky about when you order something in a restaurant?
  • When did you last spill a drink on yourself?
    it happens relatively often at work (I'm a clod with my insulated tea mug) but I don't remember the last time it happened anywhere else ... which pretty much guarantees I'll be wearing all my fluids for the foreseeable future. Thanks for that.
  • When dining out, what’s your approach to dessert?
    I don't have it all the time, but if there's a very small option (like Applebee's "shot"-sized sundaes) I'll go for it. Dining out is an opportunity to enjoy food that I don't bother to buy or make at home, which includes desserts, and I enjoy having them with friends.

[from my standard, who got it here; the title quotation is by Jamie Oliver, and reads in its entirety: “If you can eat with mates or friends or family, I mean, it's such a brilliant thing, isn't it? If you feel really rubbish and you have a nice bit of food it makes you feel good, you know?"]


I've put myself in ridiculous positions for love.

All this blazing in compression, random
snippets from the calendar: my whole life
in a minute & an echoing of days.  I'm dozing
or I'm dreaming & happy to be so evening,

so out of it, so dusk.  Listen to the rain coax
chronology from the sky.  Airplanes in the night
& their hollow metal wingings; there's a touchdown
in the dark maybe an hour ago.  Already & again.

Roaming through this tragedy, my hemisphere of grief.
Meaning I've bent over backwards for a kiss before.
I've put myself in ridiculous positions for love.
It's frightening, all this romance, & the drinking

helps forget it.  Now it's later.  The story we're telling
picks up before it started.  There are other cities
to be razed or fumbled among, there's a glitz that turns
to bloodlust under the right kind of moon.

My desire is to pluck the petals off all the beauty things
& not just flowers.  To hold one bit of sweetness
in the fingers of your hand.  To get out of bed
when you're sick.  To think of words & think of words

& think of words again.  More words & better words.
I'm reading again the Hours to figure out the symphony.
To unplug the ears & cross the uncrossed wires.
This is something blowing up.  This is patience.

[Nate Pritts, 'Autobiographical', from Sweet Nothing: Poems]


you will always be fond of me. I represent to you all the sins you never had the courage to commit

  1. What was the highlight of your week?
    I'm tempted to claim the orange Jello that I just enjoyed, which was fruitier and more delicious than anything I've had in a long time. But really, it's the rain we've finally had. I do love rain.
  2. Whose car were you in last?
    my own, of course. Who's else's would I be in?
  3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
    if I knew that, then I shouldn't be wasting my time working for a living!
  4. What color shirt are you wearing?
    Army green
  5. How long is your hair?
    12.5 inches
  6. Are you good looking?
    on a scale of...? You tell me.
  7. Last movie you watched?
    Red, I think?
  8. Who were you with?
    the housemates
  9. Last thing you ate?
    the aforementioned Jello
  10. Last thing you drank?
    cool water
  11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
    April 2012ish
  12. Who came over last?
    only Mumbler
  13. Are you happy right now?
    yep--though I wouldn't argue if some things headed in a new direction
  14. What did you say last?
    I've been snickering out loud over an IM conversation
  15. Where is your phone?
    I don't know. Somewhere in the room, probably. Maybe in the bedroom. In any case, the volume is off.
  16. What color are your eyes?
    rather than answering this question for the 98,354th time, I will instead show the color that I wish my eyes were:
  17. Are you left-handed?
    very much not
  18. Spell your name without vowels:
    cddgklmnrrtwwyz -- not in order, of course
  19. Do you have any pets?
    only by proxy
  20. Favorite Vacation?
  21. What do you dislike currently?
    I read that too quickly and thought it said "who" rather than "what." Bummer.

    Um. Short-sightedness, battery life, and deadlines of all kinds.
  22. What are you listening to?
    the popping noise my right shoulder makes when it moves the "wrong" direction, and fingers on keyboard
  23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
    £500 a month and a room of my own
  24. What is your favorite scent?
    so there's this guy...
  25. Who makes you happiest?
    just me
  26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
  27. When is your birthday?
    it was last weekish
  28. Who has the same phone as you?
    we don't really talk about it
  29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
    at least as long as it's been since we've bowled in Canada!

[from Ze Cat, who got it here; the title quotation is by Oscar Wilde, from The Picture of Dorian Gray]